Celebrating a short life – October 29, 2018

Saturday was Killian’s celebration of life. The turnout was overwhelming, to say the least. The sheer amount of people who showed up to show support and to celebrate our little Bean was unbelievable. On top of that, I received so many kind messages from people who couldn’t make it, but were keeping us in their … Continue reading Celebrating a short life – October 29, 2018

Signs he’s still with me after he’s gone – October 26, 2018

Our little Bean is home. He was cremated in Toronto, and was sent here. Dean picked him up last night. As hard as it was to get that package, he’s finally home, which is so nice. He’s finally getting integrated into our life here, and that’s what I wanted more than anything. Everyone has their … Continue reading Signs he’s still with me after he’s gone – October 26, 2018

October 20, 2018 “Getting back to normal”

Getting back to “normal” is a very odd thing. It’s been wonderful being back with my boys and my family. But our normal is definitely different now. There’s always going to be someone missing in these moments. That’s a tough thing to realize. We went to leisure farms today, and a little piece was definitely … Continue reading October 20, 2018 “Getting back to normal”

October 18, 2018 “Going home without my baby”

We’re home. Back in Sudbury. It’s very strange to be back, exactly where I left two months ago, with no changes here. It’s all exactly the way I left it. There’s no basinet, play pen or swing. Hardest of all, is there is no Killian. There’s no signs of the life changing event that just … Continue reading October 18, 2018 “Going home without my baby”