Guilt after the death of a child

Guilt is such a powerful emotion. It can literally consume you if you let it. It will sneak up and make your stomach turn to ice. That anxious, creeping feeling makes it’s way up from your belly, through the shoulders, into your throat, and then into your head. It can literally make my lips tingle … Continue reading Guilt after the death of a child

October 13, 2018

We’ve had an eventful evening/night with Mr. Bean here. He was taken to the ICU to recover from his surgery. Unfortunately his body temperature and heart rate was continuing to drop. We were here for an “episode” where his heart rate was dropping into the 70s. It’s normally around 130. To see how quickly they … Continue reading October 13, 2018

October 12, 2018 “The Gtube”

Big day today. Killian goes in for his gtube surgery early this am. A gtube is a feeding tube they goes directly into his stomach. This will allow us to remove the ngtube which has been going through his nose, into his stomach, since he was born. I really struggled with agreeing to this surgery. … Continue reading October 12, 2018 “The Gtube”