Six weeks since my baby died

Today marks six weeks. Six weeks since Killian died. As of tomorrow, he will have been gone longer than he was here. It’s surreal. It’s raw. It opens up some of those deep wounds that had begun to start to heal. I have missed my baby longer than I didn’t. I’ve look at his pictures … Continue reading Six weeks since my baby died

Maybe grief is just love, with no where to go

One thing I’ve heard over and over the last 3 weeks is that “everyone grieves differently”. I’ve heard this from family, friends, staff from Sick Kids, and most importantly, other parents who have lost children. There’s no book on how to grieve a child, or anyone for that matter. There’s no right way or wrong … Continue reading Maybe grief is just love, with no where to go

Choices; In life and after death

Choices. Choices are a funny thing. Every choice you make is completely unique to you. You have at least two in every situation life throws at you. Lots of people have said that I’m coping with Killian’s passing well, that I’m a strong person. I don’t believe that I’m any stronger than anyone else. When … Continue reading Choices; In life and after death

October 20, 2018 “Getting back to normal”

Getting back to “normal” is a very odd thing. It’s been wonderful being back with my boys and my family. But our normal is definitely different now. There’s always going to be someone missing in these moments. That’s a tough thing to realize. We went to leisure farms today, and a little piece was definitely … Continue reading October 20, 2018 “Getting back to normal”