Choices; In life and after death

Choices. Choices are a funny thing. Every choice you make is completely unique to you. You have at least two in every situation life throws at you. Lots of people have said that I’m coping with Killian’s passing well, that I’m a strong person. I don’t believe that I’m any stronger than anyone else. When … Continue reading Choices; In life and after death

Signs he’s still with me after he’s gone – October 26, 2018

Our little Bean is home. He was cremated in Toronto, and was sent here. Dean picked him up last night. As hard as it was to get that package, he’s finally home, which is so nice. He’s finally getting integrated into our life here, and that’s what I wanted more than anything. Everyone has their … Continue reading Signs he’s still with me after he’s gone – October 26, 2018

Be kind, always

I was out doing errands yesterday for most the day. It was all very normal. I was trying to be friendly and personable to people I dealt with, but was definitely not going to be winning customer of the year award. I was sitting in the car in between stops thinking about how all the … Continue reading Be kind, always

The mom who’s baby just died

Today sucks. No articulate way to say that. It just sucks. It’s been a week since Killian passed. One week. This has been the longest week of my life, but it also feels like it just happened yesterday. It’s very strange. I was out yesterday, and saw an old friend walk by. We haven’t talked … Continue reading The mom who’s baby just died

October 20, 2018 “Getting back to normal”

Getting back to “normal” is a very odd thing. It’s been wonderful being back with my boys and my family. But our normal is definitely different now. There’s always going to be someone missing in these moments. That’s a tough thing to realize. We went to leisure farms today, and a little piece was definitely … Continue reading October 20, 2018 “Getting back to normal”