The Holiday season with out my child.

Christmas and New Years are a blur to me right now. Although I can honestly say that I had a wonderful holiday with my family, it was a little harder than I anticipated. I think that because I never had Killian through a Christmas, I didn’t expect to miss him as much as I did. … Continue reading The Holiday season with out my child.

When Children Grieve

Experiencing grief as a child must be indescribeable.  For most of the kids who experience grief first hand, the amount of confusion, fear and anxiety must be very difficult to process.  We all know that kids are constantly learning, that they thrive on routine and predictablility. When death and grief invade a family, these "normals" … Continue reading When Children Grieve

Supporting someone through grief

Dealing with the loss of a child is very tricky. It's full of contradictions and mixed feelings. For the parent who has lost, and for the friends and family of said parent. Learning to live with grief is hard. Very hard. You think you have something figured out, and then you get blindsighted. But I … Continue reading Supporting someone through grief

The darkest time

Everyone knows the cliches, the sayings, the inspirational quotes.  They all boil down to one thing, "you're never given more than you can handle". This rages me. It minimizes and simplifies the hardships we all go through. And boy, do we get some tough things thrown our way. This isn't just from a grieving mothers … Continue reading The darkest time

Six weeks since my baby died

Today marks six weeks. Six weeks since Killian died. As of tomorrow, he will have been gone longer than he was here. It’s surreal. It’s raw. It opens up some of those deep wounds that had begun to start to heal. I have missed my baby longer than I didn’t. I’ve look at his pictures … Continue reading Six weeks since my baby died