When a Dad loses his child

We always talk about Moms when we talk about losing a child. How unimaginable it must be for us. It really is indescribable. Whether we had the privilege of being able to carry that baby while it grew, or we became that tiny humans Mom through another avenue, we are their Moms. Moms are often … Continue reading When a Dad loses his child

The stars aligned for my baby

Spirituality. Religion. Atheism. Agnostic. Reincarnation. The list goes on and on. Everyone believes in something, whatever that something is differs from person to person. That’s our human right. I think it’s amazing. I’ve never really fully understood where I fall in those categories. Killian’s passing has really changed how I think about the taboo subject. … Continue reading The stars aligned for my baby

The day my baby died – October 15, 2018

Our little Bean is gone. Killian died, fighting like hell, at 11:45 this morning. Dean and I were with him through the fight, and were able to hold him for his last few minutes. It all happened very quickly. We’ve been with him today, and just said our goodbyes. Thank you to every single person … Continue reading The day my baby died – October 15, 2018

October 14, 2018

Well, like I said before. This is a roller coaster. Killian took quite a turn early this am. He’s been in a fairly critical state since about 530 am. He was doing very well, until he wasn’t. He’s had to be put back on the ventilator as his breathing wasn’t doing well. His temperature and … Continue reading October 14, 2018

October 13, 2018 “Calm before the storm”

Our big man is off the ventilator! He did great. He’s being given a low flow of humidified air to help keep his poor airway happy. He’s being great though. Quiet and uneventful is a good thing. He’s still being given antibiotics to make sure any infection is being taken care of. They’re slowly starting … Continue reading October 13, 2018 “Calm before the storm”