Infant and child loss…I am 1 in 4.

When people look at me they see a lot. Some may thing I look nice. Some may think I look unapproachable and cold. Some may think I look like I have all my shit together. Some may think I look like a hot mess. Funny, crazy, confident, strange, friendly, cold. When you look at anyone, … Continue reading Infant and child loss…I am 1 in 4.

Talking about grief, changing the stigma

Talking about grief. It’s not inspirational or even very positive, but it’s reality. Just like death and love, It’s something that everyone will experience in their life. Some grief is more overwhelming and encompassing than others. But we all deal with it to some degree. Since Killian died, I’ve been working so hard on trying … Continue reading Talking about grief, changing the stigma

Grief is like a rollercoaster

I clearly remember being younger and watching movies, or reading books, that something terrible happens in. Something traumatic. And I remember thinking to myself that I didn’t think I could survive something like that. That, for example, my child ever died, I would curl up in my bed and never get out. That I would … Continue reading Grief is like a rollercoaster

Maybe grief is just love, with no where to go

One thing I’ve heard over and over the last 3 weeks is that “everyone grieves differently”. I’ve heard this from family, friends, staff from Sick Kids, and most importantly, other parents who have lost children. There’s no book on how to grieve a child, or anyone for that matter. There’s no right way or wrong … Continue reading Maybe grief is just love, with no where to go

The stars aligned for my baby

Spirituality. Religion. Atheism. Agnostic. Reincarnation. The list goes on and on. Everyone believes in something, whatever that something is differs from person to person. That’s our human right. I think it’s amazing. I’ve never really fully understood where I fall in those categories. Killian’s passing has really changed how I think about the taboo subject. … Continue reading The stars aligned for my baby